[ yes. there were all those people. yuri lets out a laugh, sad and bitter, and he shakes his head even as he runs a hand over his face. he's not going to start crying again, he refuses.

(he'll probably start crying again.) ]

One night stands, the lot of them. I didn't-- there were never any feelings there. Maybe I've been leaning too much into the rockstar lifestyle.

[ he plays with his fingers and gnaws on his bottom lip as he stares down at the ground. it's almost ridiculous, having this conversation while sitting on a swing in some random park. ]

I'm not-- [ see? fuck, there are the tears again. not as hard or flowing as before, but welling up in the corners of his eyes. he tilts his head back and blinks, trying to get them to go away. ] --I'm not the type of person that should be by your side. No one thinks so. I don't even think so. But I just... y'know. Thought you should know.