[ yuri's head turns to follow the direction finn had looked, the fan from before now hanging off of someone else's arm. probably lamenting with the person that neither one of them was going to get picked up tonight. ]
Oh! No. No, I-- no.
[ he lifts a hand and lightly rubs at the side of his neck, smiling as his own gaze lands back on finn's. he's just so... nice to look at. and nice in general. and just. ugh. ugh! stupid heart will you shut up. ]
I think I'd rather just relax tonight, too.
[ his eyes go to the door now and he takes another drink before he presses his lips together. ]
( finn doesn't have a mean bone in his body and he physically stops himself from rejecting yuri. it wouldn't do to cause any additional tension in the crew to turn down an invitation like that, even if he had wanted to spend the rest of the night decompressing. )
I don't want to make you leave the party! ( finn chirps, taking a final sip of his drink. ) But - I'd also like to explore the neighborhood before we all get back to the hotel.
Oh, you're right, ( finn agrees with an awkward chuckle. it's just silly of him, turning down such a simple suggestion.
there aren't any expectations of him, after all. at least ... he doesn't think there are. he knows the rest of the band better than yuri still, so this may as well be a good opportunity to really get to talk without the pressure of a party around them.
even if he thinks yuri might be turning down a potential fun night because of him. )
We should go, then. When you're ready! And you wouldn't be forcing me, either.
[ zero expectations outside of not running away, maybe. yuri feels like this is going to be a real test of his strength of will to get through a casual evening stroll with his absolutely desperate crush without trying something with him. and proof of how much he likes finn, really. because he does, but no one else seems to think he actually does, or suspect him of ulterior motives and...
and it sucks. he dug this grave himself and it's somehow taking more work to fill it back in.
but he brightens up when finn agrees and he nods, taking one more swallow from his drink before setting it down on the bar and pushing the now mostly empty glass away. ]
Okay! I'll go let the guys know so they can head out without having to look around for us.
[ yuri pats finn's hand and pushes himself up to his feet to make his way over to where bren and ry are. if he lets them know the word will get to the others, anyway, not that he would expect neon and jasper to wait around for them if they had it in their minds to head to another spot.
a conversation seems to happen between the three of them. well, mostly between him and bren with ry being a placating mediator. but it ends in yuri's favor and he lets out a breath before making his way back to finn. ]
( finn, meanwhile, waves goodbye to jisoo and gives her a thumbs up over the shoulder of the piercings girl, a silent signal that he hopes she gets a phone number by the end of the night.
he smiles brightly when yuri joins him again and he gestures to the doors before making his way through the crowd and toward the exit. once he pushes the doors open, a light breeze greets him and finn instantly feels soothed by the rush of fresh air.
much better. )
Oh, the sky's unexpectedly clear here, ( he observes in quiet awe, sliding his hands into the pockets of his shorts. the excitement of concerts is fun, but nothing beats these peaceful moments in finn's mind. ) This was a good idea.
[ yuri can feel a set of heavy eyes on the back of his head as he and finn make their way through the crowd, and he can only assume that it's jisoo drilling daggers into his skull. he doesn't turn around to look and see if he's right, but he does make a mental note to maybe buy her lunch tomorrow or something. just to preempt any discussions she may want to have with him.
he closes his eyes when they step outside and takes a deep breath as the door swings closed behind them, immediately dampening the sound of the crowd. a small dances across his face as he opens his eyes again to look at finn and he nods, putting his hands in his pockets as well.
even if this is definitely the kind of night to walk hand in hand with someone. ]
I'm glad you think so. Come on, I think I remember seeing a small park like two blocks this way.
[ he motions with his head and starts walking, just trying to be happy with what he's getting. ]
( finn smiles, small and bashful because this might be the first time ( well, in his mind ) that they've been alone, far from the roar of the crowd. )
Do. Do you have any routine to wind down after a concert? I know Bren likes to watch his shows and sometimes go live with fans. Stuff like that. Sometimes, Jisoo and I do face masks before bed too. ( finn actually giggles, the mere mentions of his friends making him more relaxed with every step they take towards the park. )
[ yeah, well. he did have a routine, one that left him sated and relaxed and incredibly tuckered out but 1) he hasn't done that in... a while, now, a few weeks at least and 2) even if he hadn't paused those activities, he wasn't about to discuss them with finn.
he tilts his head back and gazes skyward, eyes shifting between the stars that haven't been blacked out by city lights. ]
I've actually been going for walks lately if it's the kind of night where I can't get my brain to stop chasing itself in circles. If Jasper's not busy, I'll join him at the gym. Otherwise, it's just my beauty routine and then bed.
[ yuri giggles a little bit and tilts his head to look over at finn. ]
( another giggle, this time with a nose wrinkle. ) A little. She gives me updates.
( except the most important updates of all, but that's really on present parties to deal with it themselves. )
What keeps you up if you can't sleep? Thinking about the next concert? Or new songs? ( he's genuinely curious, especially since he only sees specific facets to yuri most of the time. primarily the handsome bassist working the crowd. )
I do think Jas is at the gym maybe - mm - ninety percent of the time, ( finn jokes with a cheeky shrug. )
When he's not busy staring in confusion at the back of Neon's head, you mean.
[ it's been fun watching them, even if yuri is in a similar position of one-sided pining. he, at least, is fully aware of what his feelings are, as opposed to jasper's very confused state of being. on the other hand, yuri is at least relatively confident that they'll figure things out at some point.
he's not nearly as confident with him and finn.
yuri turns as the sidewalk opens up to a path into the park, his eyes lifting to the soft lighting of the lamps along the pathway. ]
I... have a tendency to dwell on mistakes I've made. Whether it's about something on stage or something with a person... It can be as small as regret over my lunch choice.
[ he shrugs just a little, finally taking his hands out of his pockets to just let them swing at his sides. ]
It's fine. I've become an expert at winning shower arguments.
( this is absolutely news to finn, whose eyes widen in wonder. that would explain the chemistry they have on stage anyway, but he could always credit that to them simply clicking as friends.
at yuri's comment, though, he tilts his head and smiles a little shyly. )
Aren't you practically perfect, though? ( it's not a flirtatious comment whatsoever, but an earnest ask by someone whose head is still partially in the clouds. look, he likes him, even if being next to yuri makes his palms sweat. )
[ it's a good thing yuri wasn't doing anything that was physically taxing, like taking a sip of water, because he absolutely would have made a fool of himself right then and there. as it is his cheeks and ears light up and he immediately lifts his hands to cover his ears at least, wide eyes darting away to look out over the empty park (well, mostly, he's pretty sure he sees a couple walking together on another path). ]
No. No, no. I-- no.
[ and then he's giggling, helplessly, as he shakes his head. ]
Oh, goodness, that caught me off guard. That was sweet of you, though, but I'll let you in on a little secret: I actually have terrible self-esteem and am simply fully on board the fake it 'til you make it train.
( finn covers his mouth and chuckles, not expecting that rather sweet reaction. )
It's hard to tell when you're on stage and all. ( even he knows that guitarists and vocalists tend to get more love, but yuri seems to makes sure he gets more than enough attention on that stage. it's something he appreciates - and it's something that certainly keeps finn on his toes whenever yuri's around. )
And that, my dear Finnigan, is because I thrive on the approval of those around me, strangers and friends alike. Tell me I'm doing good and I'm basically yours.
[ yuri smiles just a little to himself, something just a touch twisted behind it, and it disappears as quickly as it showed up. he jogs just a couple steps ahead of finn so that he can turn around and start walking backwards in front of him, his hands clasped behind his back. he's less likely to suddenly reach out and take hold of his hand if he's in front of him like this. ]
I've told you a secret. It's your turn. Do you even have secrets? You seem so... open.
( he's filled with an unexpectedly fluttery feeling at the admission, getting to hear something no one else is privy to around here. )
I won't tell anyone, ( finn whispers through the giggles at the nicholasname yuri has given him. it gives him a second to really think about a secret he can offer in return.
well, maybe he needs more than a second. )
I don't really have anything to hide, I suppose. I guess...! I guess, I'd tell you something like, I've never dated anyone ever. I used to wonder if there was something off about me, but I know I'm just waiting for the right person. ( he gives a little shrug, unembarrassed by it. to his knowledge, his love life isn't a topic of conversation around these parts. )
That's not a secret, but it's not something I talk about much with other people!
[ there's no judgment in the question, just genuine surprise because frankly, yuri is stunned by this information. his eyebrows head up toward his hairline and he presses a hand to his mouth. it... explains a lot, actually, and lends itself to telling yuri exactly why someone like him could so easily scare someone like finn away.
yuri's not sure he knows how to be gentle but god he wants to try for finn. ]
That's so hard for me to believe. You're so sweet and handsome, I'd be positively jealous of anyone who could get your attention.
( modestly, finn pulls his shoulders up to his ears again, stopping in the middle of the path to sort of... let yuri process that information. it's nothing he's ashamed of, not really anyway. sometimes seeing people coupling up all the time around him makes him feel a certain type of way, but then he goes back to his personal cheerleader or even bren and he feels better. )
Ah, thank you, also. For thinking I'm sweet and handsome. ( his dimples pop out for a second as he flashes a smile. ) As for finding someone, Jisoo says I need to get my head out of the clouds sometimes. Just sometimes.
[ yuri reaches up and clutches at his chest, dramatically staggering just a little bit to the side in an almost swoon as finn flashes those dimples his direction. it's overacted, maybe, but it's also just a real representation of how he feels. not that finn knows that. ]
Your smile is a weapon and I mean that in the most positive way possible.
[ he laughs and reaches up to brush his fingers through his hair, eyes dropping down to the ground between them. ]
But she might be on to something, you know. If you come back down now and then, maybe you'll catch someone staring at the back of your head.
[ yuri falls quiet for a moment before he abruptly turns on his heel and continues walking, hands still clasped behind his back and the tune from one of their songs quietly on his lips. ]
How will I know they're staring if they keep looking away though? ( finn asks in earnest, his eyes wide and curious even as he trails after the other. yuri seems like someone to ask given what finn's seen of his experience and the way people seem to follow him.
he's a little more sober now, though his cheeks are still ruddy from the drink and maybe the conversation as well. )
How would you deal with it?
( this is not how he expected his evening to go, but it's in finn's nature to try to go with the flow. )
[ yuri's head tilts backward so he can look skyward, eyes once more on the stars twinkling far above them. there are more out now that it's grown later, and even if the lights of the city still block a lot of them it really feels like being in the park has revealed more of them for the two of them to look at. ]
Test the waters, if I'm hoping someone might sometimes be looking my way. Strike up a conversation whenever I can, laugh at their silly little jokes, help them out with whatever they're doing.
( finn seems to mentally jot down a few notes as he stares at yuri, nodding a few times with his lips parted. the art of courtship is hard, he thinks. it would be a lot more helpful if people could just say what they meant more often. ah, well. )
Thanks, ( he exhales with a bright smile. there's no rush for him to find his person, but he does feel better equipped for the search now. )
Bren said he felt similarly but then he saw Ry and he just knew! I like how that sounds.
[ he wants to laugh. he wants to laugh so hard because he literally just laid out every way he's been trying to flirt with finn for the last few months and it just washed right over him. there's a part of him that fully believes that it's just because that's just... how finn is. he's observed the man for long enough now to realize that he isn't that wholly observant. but there's another part of yuri, that part that's uncertain, that feels like he'll never be good enough, that thinks that maybe finn just...
isn't interested. ]
Well. Romance like that is a rare thing. Most of us have to put in the work.
[ his eyes wander off and he pauses, brightening up just a little. ]
Finn, swings!
[ and then yuri takes off, because if he doesn't think about it he can't get hurt, and swings are a nice distraction. he parks himself on one of them and immediately kicks off. ]
( but he'll hold out hope for that kind of fairytale love. he still believes in some forms of magic, after all. maybe that's what's holding him back from ever finding his person, but finn never wants to lose that part of himself.
he perks up at the sight of swings now that yuri has pointed them out and trots after him with a short laugh. )
I'll push you, Yuri, ( he offers gently, coming up behind him to catch the chains in both hands and giving him a push. )
[ there's a smile on his face as finn rounds behind him to start giving him a push. yuri doesn't kick too hard, isn't keen on going too high and besides, if he gets too much momentum finn won't be able to give him the little pushes anymore.
his heart aches. finn wants a fairytale, love at first sight, someone to take his breath away the moment he lays eyes on them kind of love and yuri has very obviously not been that for him. he's messy, and kind of a slut, and comes with a fair amount of baggage that he doesn't want to burden anyone with. ]
I've never had romance. [ he says it as he sails through the air, legs kicked out in front of him as he goes forward before tucking underneath as he gets sent back toward finn. ] But there is someone that makes me feel all fluttery. I just don't know how to tell them without risking what we already have.
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[ yuri's head turns to follow the direction finn had looked, the fan from before now hanging off of someone else's arm. probably lamenting with the person that neither one of them was going to get picked up tonight. ]
Oh! No. No, I-- no.
[ he lifts a hand and lightly rubs at the side of his neck, smiling as his own gaze lands back on finn's. he's just so... nice to look at. and nice in general. and just. ugh. ugh! stupid heart will you shut up. ]
I think I'd rather just relax tonight, too.
[ his eyes go to the door now and he takes another drink before he presses his lips together. ]
We could... go for a walk? If you wanted to?
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( finn doesn't have a mean bone in his body and he physically stops himself from rejecting yuri. it wouldn't do to cause any additional tension in the crew to turn down an invitation like that, even if he had wanted to spend the rest of the night decompressing. )
I don't want to make you leave the party! ( finn chirps, taking a final sip of his drink. ) But - I'd also like to explore the neighborhood before we all get back to the hotel.
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[ yuri leans an elbow on the bar in front of them and rests his chin on his head. the smile he gives finn is small and as encouraging as it can be. ]
Finn, you can tell me no if you don't wanna. I promise, I'm not gonna go like... sulk about it somewhere.
[ yes he would but finn doesn't need to know that. ]
It's just a nice night out, and walking with someone is more fun than walking alone.
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there aren't any expectations of him, after all. at least ... he doesn't think there are. he knows the rest of the band better than yuri still, so this may as well be a good opportunity to really get to talk without the pressure of a party around them.
even if he thinks yuri might be turning down a potential fun night because of him. )
We should go, then. When you're ready! And you wouldn't be forcing me, either.
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and it sucks. he dug this grave himself and it's somehow taking more work to fill it back in.
but he brightens up when finn agrees and he nods, taking one more swallow from his drink before setting it down on the bar and pushing the now mostly empty glass away. ]
Okay! I'll go let the guys know so they can head out without having to look around for us.
[ yuri pats finn's hand and pushes himself up to his feet to make his way over to where bren and ry are. if he lets them know the word will get to the others, anyway, not that he would expect neon and jasper to wait around for them if they had it in their minds to head to another spot.
a conversation seems to happen between the three of them. well, mostly between him and bren with ry being a placating mediator. but it ends in yuri's favor and he lets out a breath before making his way back to finn. ]
All set!
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he smiles brightly when yuri joins him again and he gestures to the doors before making his way through the crowd and toward the exit. once he pushes the doors open, a light breeze greets him and finn instantly feels soothed by the rush of fresh air.
much better. )
Oh, the sky's unexpectedly clear here, ( he observes in quiet awe, sliding his hands into the pockets of his shorts. the excitement of concerts is fun, but nothing beats these peaceful moments in finn's mind. ) This was a good idea.
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he closes his eyes when they step outside and takes a deep breath as the door swings closed behind them, immediately dampening the sound of the crowd. a small dances across his face as he opens his eyes again to look at finn and he nods, putting his hands in his pockets as well.
even if this is definitely the kind of night to walk hand in hand with someone. ]
I'm glad you think so. Come on, I think I remember seeing a small park like two blocks this way.
[ he motions with his head and starts walking, just trying to be happy with what he's getting. ]
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( finn smiles, small and bashful because this might be the first time ( well, in his mind ) that they've been alone, far from the roar of the crowd. )
Do. Do you have any routine to wind down after a concert? I know Bren likes to watch his shows and sometimes go live with fans. Stuff like that. Sometimes, Jisoo and I do face masks before bed too. ( finn actually giggles, the mere mentions of his friends making him more relaxed with every step they take towards the park. )
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[ yeah, well. he did have a routine, one that left him sated and relaxed and incredibly tuckered out but 1) he hasn't done that in... a while, now, a few weeks at least and 2) even if he hadn't paused those activities, he wasn't about to discuss them with finn.
he tilts his head back and gazes skyward, eyes shifting between the stars that haven't been blacked out by city lights. ]
I've actually been going for walks lately if it's the kind of night where I can't get my brain to stop chasing itself in circles. If Jasper's not busy, I'll join him at the gym. Otherwise, it's just my beauty routine and then bed.
[ yuri giggles a little bit and tilts his head to look over at finn. ]
Do you two lay in bed and gossip, too?
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( except the most important updates of all, but that's really on present parties to deal with it themselves. )
What keeps you up if you can't sleep? Thinking about the next concert? Or new songs? ( he's genuinely curious, especially since he only sees specific facets to yuri most of the time. primarily the handsome bassist working the crowd. )
I do think Jas is at the gym maybe - mm - ninety percent of the time, ( finn jokes with a cheeky shrug. )
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[ it's been fun watching them, even if yuri is in a similar position of one-sided pining. he, at least, is fully aware of what his feelings are, as opposed to jasper's very confused state of being. on the other hand, yuri is at least relatively confident that they'll figure things out at some point.
he's not nearly as confident with him and finn.
yuri turns as the sidewalk opens up to a path into the park, his eyes lifting to the soft lighting of the lamps along the pathway. ]
I... have a tendency to dwell on mistakes I've made. Whether it's about something on stage or something with a person... It can be as small as regret over my lunch choice.
[ he shrugs just a little, finally taking his hands out of his pockets to just let them swing at his sides. ]
It's fine. I've become an expert at winning shower arguments.
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( this is absolutely news to finn, whose eyes widen in wonder. that would explain the chemistry they have on stage anyway, but he could always credit that to them simply clicking as friends.
at yuri's comment, though, he tilts his head and smiles a little shyly. )
Aren't you practically perfect, though? ( it's not a flirtatious comment whatsoever, but an earnest ask by someone whose head is still partially in the clouds. look, he likes him, even if being next to yuri makes his palms sweat. )
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[ it's a good thing yuri wasn't doing anything that was physically taxing, like taking a sip of water, because he absolutely would have made a fool of himself right then and there. as it is his cheeks and ears light up and he immediately lifts his hands to cover his ears at least, wide eyes darting away to look out over the empty park (well, mostly, he's pretty sure he sees a couple walking together on another path). ]
No. No, no. I-- no.
[ and then he's giggling, helplessly, as he shakes his head. ]
Oh, goodness, that caught me off guard. That was sweet of you, though, but I'll let you in on a little secret: I actually have terrible self-esteem and am simply fully on board the fake it 'til you make it train.
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It's hard to tell when you're on stage and all. ( even he knows that guitarists and vocalists tend to get more love, but yuri seems to makes sure he gets more than enough attention on that stage. it's something he appreciates - and it's something that certainly keeps finn on his toes whenever yuri's around. )
You seem so... confident!
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[ yuri smiles just a little to himself, something just a touch twisted behind it, and it disappears as quickly as it showed up. he jogs just a couple steps ahead of finn so that he can turn around and start walking backwards in front of him, his hands clasped behind his back. he's less likely to suddenly reach out and take hold of his hand if he's in front of him like this. ]
I've told you a secret. It's your turn. Do you even have secrets? You seem so... open.
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I won't tell anyone, ( finn whispers through the giggles at the nicholasname yuri has given him. it gives him a second to really think about a secret he can offer in return.
well, maybe he needs more than a second. )
I don't really have anything to hide, I suppose. I guess...! I guess, I'd tell you something like, I've never dated anyone ever. I used to wonder if there was something off about me, but I know I'm just waiting for the right person. ( he gives a little shrug, unembarrassed by it. to his knowledge, his love life isn't a topic of conversation around these parts. )
That's not a secret, but it's not something I talk about much with other people!
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[ there's no judgment in the question, just genuine surprise because frankly, yuri is stunned by this information. his eyebrows head up toward his hairline and he presses a hand to his mouth. it... explains a lot, actually, and lends itself to telling yuri exactly why someone like him could so easily scare someone like finn away.
yuri's not sure he knows how to be gentle but god he wants to try for finn. ]
That's so hard for me to believe. You're so sweet and handsome, I'd be positively jealous of anyone who could get your attention.
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( modestly, finn pulls his shoulders up to his ears again, stopping in the middle of the path to sort of... let yuri process that information. it's nothing he's ashamed of, not really anyway. sometimes seeing people coupling up all the time around him makes him feel a certain type of way, but then he goes back to his personal cheerleader or even bren and he feels better. )
Ah, thank you, also. For thinking I'm sweet and handsome. ( his dimples pop out for a second as he flashes a smile. ) As for finding someone, Jisoo says I need to get my head out of the clouds sometimes. Just sometimes.
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Your smile is a weapon and I mean that in the most positive way possible.
[ he laughs and reaches up to brush his fingers through his hair, eyes dropping down to the ground between them. ]
But she might be on to something, you know. If you come back down now and then, maybe you'll catch someone staring at the back of your head.
[ yuri falls quiet for a moment before he abruptly turns on his heel and continues walking, hands still clasped behind his back and the tune from one of their songs quietly on his lips. ]
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he's a little more sober now, though his cheeks are still ruddy from the drink and maybe the conversation as well. )
How would you deal with it?
( this is not how he expected his evening to go, but it's in finn's nature to try to go with the flow. )
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[ yuri's head tilts backward so he can look skyward, eyes once more on the stars twinkling far above them. there are more out now that it's grown later, and even if the lights of the city still block a lot of them it really feels like being in the park has revealed more of them for the two of them to look at. ]
Test the waters, if I'm hoping someone might sometimes be looking my way. Strike up a conversation whenever I can, laugh at their silly little jokes, help them out with whatever they're doing.
[ another pause, softer, mostly to himself. ]
Invite them on a walk in the park at midnight.
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Thanks, ( he exhales with a bright smile. there's no rush for him to find his person, but he does feel better equipped for the search now. )
Bren said he felt similarly but then he saw Ry and he just knew! I like how that sounds.
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isn't interested. ]
Well. Romance like that is a rare thing. Most of us have to put in the work.
[ his eyes wander off and he pauses, brightening up just a little. ]
Finn, swings!
[ and then yuri takes off, because if he doesn't think about it he can't get hurt, and swings are a nice distraction. he parks himself on one of them and immediately kicks off. ]
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( but he'll hold out hope for that kind of fairytale love. he still believes in some forms of magic, after all. maybe that's what's holding him back from ever finding his person, but finn never wants to lose that part of himself.
he perks up at the sight of swings now that yuri has pointed them out and trots after him with a short laugh. )
I'll push you, Yuri, ( he offers gently, coming up behind him to catch the chains in both hands and giving him a push. )
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[ there's a smile on his face as finn rounds behind him to start giving him a push. yuri doesn't kick too hard, isn't keen on going too high and besides, if he gets too much momentum finn won't be able to give him the little pushes anymore.
his heart aches. finn wants a fairytale, love at first sight, someone to take his breath away the moment he lays eyes on them kind of love and yuri has very obviously not been that for him. he's messy, and kind of a slut, and comes with a fair amount of baggage that he doesn't want to burden anyone with. ]
I've never had romance. [ he says it as he sails through the air, legs kicked out in front of him as he goes forward before tucking underneath as he gets sent back toward finn. ] But there is someone that makes me feel all fluttery. I just don't know how to tell them without risking what we already have.
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